autobiographical timeline
with emphasis on transition from learning to earning
stages
(last update - August, 2021)
1984 – born
~ 1989 – began involuntary, good-intentioned public school
and sports that were fun
~ 1996 – began going to “work out” at gym with Madhav and
abnormally coping with sexual desires (with porn, non-girl(friend), etc.)
~1999 – began writing rap lyrics toward recording rap tracks including
underlying sexual niche formation/motivations
2002 – decision to
go to college and study theatre/film career toward a film director, but soon
changed to sociology/philosophy for higher knowledge/understanding. In college, dependent (i.e. not doing
work-study), freedom to party, have girlfriends, and not need to worry about
“making a living” to survive. this enabled me to extract both good and bad,
very basically. ended up failed&jailed, and...
2006 – … to a mental
hospital where i was given social security opportunity to go back to school to
have a (successful) career like a doctor, engineer, etc.
2008 – after
graduating with a BA, decided to go back to undergraduate-level college to
learn the more physical and objective sciences, both for philosophical and
practical purposes
2010 – weaned off
psychiatric meds and oriented my studies to health sciences/field
~2011 – began isolatedly studying for MCAT, and frusterated
with US military/government priority and my future with unsimilar, globally
uncooperative people...
2013 – … left for
india indefinitely and continued my health science studies, creative audio (hip
hop/rap related) work, and Coursera MOOC studies. returned to US and took MCAT,
and later applied to UCD medical internship program, which importantly allowed
me to consider how best to continue my life to make a living – continue
dependent-freedom medical related schooling, or decide for further schooling
with a working mentality. choosing the latter...
2014 – … worked as
auto mechanic apprentice and health care outreach intern simultaneously while
still continuing independent (MOOC) studies and artistic audio work. i
understand that the apprentice, learn-while-working approach was correct for
me, and so i organized a physical therapist apprentice “hunt”, and realized it
was not mutually fitting, or at least i did not have the required
motivation/dedication to continue pursuing this career path.
2015 – again with
the coming of spring, restarted as auto mechanic and hospital intern while
still continuing inspired artistic work and independent studies, and now
considering/focusing on the long-term sustainability of my working/living, also
began my “living consideration report”. began moving toward similar
people in their “greeness” (or environmental-friendliness) – from business
people, to deeply conscious beings, to plant planters, to compost teachers, to
gardeners, to harvesters, to communal people, probably to social scientists,
etc), and...
2016 – … got a temporary job to earn some money to healthily
migrate from “the city” to “the country” and live with these full-time, more
cooperative and Nnature-oriented, “green” people in missouri with the white
rose catholic worker community. within just days, had long-term insight to live
this way, but in a more (culturally) appropriate india. again, got a temporary
job to migrate to india, but i rushed into it, and so the visa problems (with
dr. savant's guidance) suggested to return to US to more properly migrate in a
more timely and patient way than the previous time.
2017 – again, efforts were put into earning money and
preparing to migrate to india to a healthier village setting to then
dharmically contribute and prepare for potential marriage and family...
2018 - … but I may be aware at a middle, “sociology” level
(compared to a narrower, “psychological” level), but dr. savant and god is
aware at an even broader, wholistic level, and after various attempts to
assimilate in my chosen way of life, dr. savant resonatingly told me to “go
back to US, earn money, for land, and then return”… also, in kerala, similar to
the insight had at WRCW in 2016, my own consciousness (a.k.a. “god”) knew that I still had to “pay dues”
before settling. Returning to US, I
dharmikally put efforts in various areas toward the same path (including
generally, “burning off karmas”, working at community gardens,
studying/community-organizing/reporting, trying to get the best job, getting a
temporary job…)…
2019 – again, efforts were toward finding a good, supportive
group and living situation to also earn some money… but with dr. savant’s
guidance, quickly changed my focus to not look too far ahead, but try to even
find a like-minded community in US itself (like twin oaks). I soon realized the importance to find
combination (like gokul dham hare krishna ecovillage) of both main criteria:
cooperative, environmentally sustainable, & Nature-oriented (like an
“ecovillage”), but also a morally
wealth group (like temple goers). Also,
realized I should spend more than just days or weeks, but months in such a way
of life, and found opportunity at living energy farm in virginia, which
effectively reinforced my journey in that way of life. So again, efforts were
put into earning money and preparing to migrate like in 2017.
2020 – found work with much difficulty, earned or got about
enough money for move, but then the COVID-19 pandemic came / global
stay-in-place directives, and tried to make best use of that time… until moved to india, staying with hare krishnas and w.w.o.o.f. hosts, better prioritizing myself toward looking for an entry-level position in environmental protection career, and eventually settling in a place I could do few hours/day of volunteer, physical temple-community gardening
2021 - to Bangalore looking to start my career (also with release of “Bright Green Lies,”) but finding nothing, returned to US continuing the search of source-oriented environmental protection work...
my main cultural influences
-family/friends
-suburban man-made environment, Economy dependent on fossil fuel and other environmentally unsustainable energies
-competitive sports and academics
-internationally powerful usa military and economy
-powerful education system
-medias like video games, television, music, movies, etc.
-indian diaspora and hinduism/chinmayamission/tirupati venkateshwara, shirdi sai baba
-african diaspora and hip hop/rap forms
-this wwweb
-common/external, grosser Science
-mexican diaspora and labor/work significance/energies
-environmentalists/naturalists
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