my inefficient, dumb work (from Fall 2018 facebook post)

“Wait, but no, seriously, I (still) don't get it...? why is Kiki working so inefficiently & stupid??” (31 answers ordered from least to most accurate, iKo with reflexivity-dynamic leeway of course)

(1) he wants to “stick it to 'the man'” like... and that's combined with the rebellious, sexual niche thing.

(2) to be different and attract mate (i.o.w. sexual niche purposes)

(3) he's against “the Machine's” plans for us (women, the physically-weaker-yet-emotionally-stronger sex to finally claim our superior position to men... in this e-motion! Muhaha)

(4) he's mentally ill / has a history of psychiatric illness... and it's a manifestation of his mental illness (converted in this form like)... or it's therapeutic for this

(5) Thoreau and Walden pond brainwashed him I tell ya!

(6) he wants to be !macho... and (at least subconsciously) prove he doesn't need much. He's showing how most-to-all of modern day conveniences, institutions, etc. are unnecessary, misguided, etc.

(7) to have integrity or be true to his artwork and (like Dr. Dre's piece) “continue to make [creative-audio] records” (like this itself)... or just “have it” (“it” being like confidence)

(8) um, ?he didn't have much guidance to know how to work better

(9) !he's a (m***** f******) beast! That's why.

(10) he's actually become (or paying off karmic debts for) a beastly animal of his own regression... see how he weeds! He's like a cow, or goat hahaha.

(11) he's just a pawn the Hindu/Indian “gangsters” are using, simultaneously punishing him for his abhorring and sinful sexual misconducts on the internet

(12) he's showing the way for African-Americans, Mexican-Americans, “developing-world” citizens, and other lower-class / poorer people the correct work and way of life

(13) to entertain us! Whether in the garden, or even this survey! What a 1derful mind player! thanx

(14) um... why is he doing this? / this is such a waste of time... he's so full of himself / nobody cares.

(15) he wouldn't have to if he had a purer, more satwic, less rajasik mind, but he chose family-life rather than direct-to sanyas... and so (sigh)

(16) he doesn't need much

(17) he doesn't know better, or he wasn't, or wouldn't, be smart enough to invent these smarter, more efficient technologies, and even though there’s the existence of trade or money value, his slightly skewed, idealistic mind tells him he cannot really use technologies he cannot, did not, should not, and would not (help to) make

(18) a beyond-this-life-deep competition or spiritual process with his father - a retired engineer in this life, who contributed to much of the technological conveniences he is, at least effectively, s******* on

(19) he's on another level... duh

(20) to get super-Nature powers, like to be at one with Nature, duh

(21) to balance a lotta, lotta thinking work, and you can think that again!

(22) he's getting good exercise... !no more hamstercizing in the 'dumbbell' gyms for hims

(23) it comes naturally/intuitively

(24) it's like training, especially given his (generation’s) more spoiled upbringing… cultivating a strong work ethic, then, in the future, work, or taking care of duties, whatever they may be, 'll be !cake for him

(25) it's therapeutic (ala “Nnature deficit disorder”)

(26) oh yeah. He needs to feel more connected to the lively energies in the natural environment, after being so disconnected from it (from involuntary school-going, to fossil-fuel-subsidized living, the internet/IT/e-devices, etc. deader energies)

(27) duty/“calling”

(28) he's in debt to, and needs to pay back Nature, or the true source of his energy being

(29) yeah, even given “embodied energies”, etc., he could still work better while being dutiful with low ecological (C & H2O) footprints, etc., but like a novice, he has to learn and gain appreciation for that appropriate balance, in the due time

(30) oh wait... he does sometimes work smarter & more efficiently (or use tools/technologies with these traits)... too... hard... for my... binary-seeking... simple-answer-requiring judgmental-brain to interpret!

(31) (at some level of consciousness) so he could qualify writing this survey... from a less-blind, taking-for-granted, more intelligent, ecological understanding of our world/energies...!whaooh!

WWOOF USA profile (from 2019)

About Me

In this WWOOF way, I’m searching for a work-exchange opportunity on a good, small-scale, or transitioning-to-the-best-possible-farming-operations farm.  I prefer hosts that are more in touch and co-supportive with their neighbors, or surrounding community, and even better if their extra energies are used for extra-outreach, education, and demonstration purposes… orand, used for more internal-strengthening of their community for dharmic/good social conduct and morally wealthy glow.
I am 35, and this opportunity or training ought to also help rehabilitatively prepare me for (a more self-sustaining) village life and work duties as I prepare for wife, and family life.
I’m also considering my search at local farmers’ markets, the Foundation for Intentional Community, etc.  Also, it may be nice to find a place with nearby paid-work opportunities that I may take on at an appropriate time aligned with the expectations of my host.
Eventually, I’d like to do whatever work is most fitting for me (which now I’m thinking would be a variety of daily village duties), and I HAVE AFFINITIES FOR food-growing related work like composting, harvesting, cultivating, planning/managing, teaching…. and PREFER TO NOT (or at least minimize) work with: animals, inappropriate, environmentally harmful technologies, and stupidity or ignorance.
Regardless of skin color or nature, culture, it would be sweet to simultaneously restore the social injustice* that I (mostly unknowingly in my eating habits) helped to contribute to by indirectly supporting misguided, imbalanced, and destructive money, power interests that effectively harmed otherwise good ‘n decent farmers (and their families) and our earth, the environment, too.
I am good-natured with strong work ethic, honest/trustworthy (sometimes to a fault), good attitude, and likeable.  I work better wholistically cooperating and in an environmentally-friendlier, -balanced, or -sustaining way.  Still though, I should, or want to, take orders, or be controlled, for *my dynamic, karmic debt (to the boss) or for the boss’ knowing of the right ways to g(r)o, right?
Here is a link to my google website for more information (including a recent unfinished report I did while WWOOFing in India that shows my potential intellectual- or consulting-like contributions).

Skills

At my age, I have little experience, but since only about 4 years back I have been inconsistently involved in many various experiences in farm-related work.  Like the “affinities” mentioned above, these efforts were especially in harvesting, weeding, composting, cultivating, post-processing, intellectual work, creative-artistic digital work, etc..  I don’t believe I’m especially skilled at anything like say a scyther, craftsman, wood-worker, etc. might be, but isn’t this way of life…

autobiographical timelline and my cultural influences

autobiographical timeline

with emphasis on transition from learning to earning stages

(last update - August, 2021)

   1984 – born

~ 1989 – began involuntary, good-intentioned public school and sports that were fun

~ 1996 – began going to “work out” at gym with Madhav and abnormally coping with sexual desires (with porn, non-girl(friend), etc.)

~1999 – began writing rap lyrics toward recording rap tracks including underlying sexual niche formation/motivations

   2002 – decision to go to college and study theatre/film career toward a film director, but soon changed to sociology/philosophy for higher knowledge/understanding.  In college, dependent (i.e. not doing work-study), freedom to party, have girlfriends, and not need to worry about “making a living” to survive. this enabled me to extract both good and bad, very basically. ended up failed&jailed, and...

   2006 – … to a mental hospital where i was given social security opportunity to go back to school to have a (successful) career like a doctor, engineer, etc.

   2008 – after graduating with a BA, decided to go back to undergraduate-level college to learn the more physical and objective sciences, both for philosophical and practical purposes

   2010 – weaned off psychiatric meds and oriented my studies to health sciences/field

~2011 – began isolatedly studying for MCAT, and frusterated with US military/government priority and my future with unsimilar, globally uncooperative people...

   2013 – … left for india indefinitely and continued my health science studies, creative audio (hip hop/rap related) work, and Coursera MOOC studies. returned to US and took MCAT, and later applied to UCD medical internship program, which importantly allowed me to consider how best to continue my life to make a living – continue dependent-freedom medical related schooling, or decide for further schooling with a working mentality. choosing the latter...

   2014 – … worked as auto mechanic apprentice and health care outreach intern simultaneously while still continuing independent (MOOC) studies and artistic audio work. i understand that the apprentice, learn-while-working approach was correct for me, and so i organized a physical therapist apprentice “hunt”, and realized it was not mutually fitting, or at least i did not have the required motivation/dedication to continue pursuing this career path.

   2015 – again with the coming of spring, restarted as auto mechanic and hospital intern while still continuing inspired artistic work and independent studies, and now considering/focusing on the long-term sustainability of my working/living, also began my “living consideration report”. began moving toward similar people in their “greeness” (or environmental-friendliness) – from business people, to deeply conscious beings, to plant planters, to compost teachers, to gardeners, to harvesters, to communal people, probably to social scientists, etc), and...

2016 – … got a temporary job to earn some money to healthily migrate from “the city” to “the country” and live with these full-time, more cooperative and Nnature-oriented, “green” people in missouri with the white rose catholic worker community. within just days, had long-term insight to live this way, but in a more (culturally) appropriate india. again, got a temporary job to migrate to india, but i rushed into it, and so the visa problems (with dr. savant's guidance) suggested to return to US to more properly migrate in a more timely and patient way than the previous time.

2017 – again, efforts were put into earning money and preparing to migrate to india to a healthier village setting to then dharmically contribute and prepare for potential marriage and family...

2018 - … but I may be aware at a middle, “sociology” level (compared to a narrower, “psychological” level), but dr. savant and god is aware at an even broader, wholistic level, and after various attempts to assimilate in my chosen way of life, dr. savant resonatingly told me to “go back to US, earn money, for land, and then return”… also, in kerala, similar to the insight had at WRCW in 2016, my own consciousness (a.k.a. “god”) knew that I still had to “pay dues” before settling.  Returning to US, I dharmikally put efforts in various areas toward the same path (including generally, “burning off karmas”, working at community gardens, studying/community-organizing/reporting, trying to get the best job, getting a temporary job…)…

2019 – again, efforts were toward finding a good, supportive group and living situation to also earn some money… but with dr. savant’s guidance, quickly changed my focus to not look too far ahead, but try to even find a like-minded community in US itself (like twin oaks).  I soon realized the importance to find combination (like gokul dham hare krishna ecovillage) of both main criteria: cooperative, environmentally sustainable, & Nature-oriented (like an “ecovillage”), but also a morally wealth group (like temple goers).  Also, realized I should spend more than just days or weeks, but months in such a way of life, and found opportunity at living energy farm in virginia, which effectively reinforced my journey in that way of life. So again, efforts were put into earning money and preparing to migrate like in 2017.

2020 – found work with much difficulty, earned or got about enough money for move, but then the COVID-19 pandemic came / global stay-in-place directives, and tried to make best use of that time… until moved to india, staying with hare krishnas and w.w.o.o.f. hosts, better prioritizing myself toward looking for an entry-level position in environmental protection career, and eventually settling in a place I could do few hours/day of volunteer, physical temple-community gardening

2021 - to Bangalore looking to start my career (also with release of “Bright Green Lies,”) but finding nothing, returned to US continuing the search of source-oriented environmental protection work...

my main cultural influences

-family/friends

-suburban man-made environment, Economy dependent on fossil fuel and other environmentally unsustainable energies

-competitive sports and academics

-internationally powerful usa military and economy

-powerful education system

-medias like video games, television, music, movies, etc.

-indian diaspora and hinduism/chinmayamission/tirupati venkateshwara, shirdi sai baba

-african diaspora and hip hop/rap forms

-this wwweb

-common/external, grosser Science

-mexican diaspora and labor/work significance/energies

-environmentalists/naturalists

Corona Virus - Special pass to Vandana Shiva's blog

Ecological Reflections on the Corona Virus (from the Navdanya website)